Ren on paper isn’t just about drawing. Its about taking lost into found, being who I am without apology or mirroring people around me. Its about starting from scratch with my life and seeing how its going from many angles…sketches, writings, experiences, living in new places, friendships, and getting involved in the world around me. Its about looking to reclaim the me who could turn a corner in the road and have the scene ahead take my breath away. I want to live moments that just absolutely take my breath away. I’m starting over within the bounds of introversion and singleness. I’m a project. I’m finding Ren.
Just like all projects I do with art or writing, it goes through phases. Life is the same. At first I’m hesitant and ask myself, “Can I do this?” Following that, if I survive it, I move into the phase of fits and starts, mixed in with doubts. Its usually not a good place to be and its where I may likely give up. However, if I just persevere, there begins to appear a bright light ahead of me. I keep walking towards it and sooner or later, on faith alone, the project is done and I can see that it is good. I’m not God, but I can see how creating some part of this great project EARTH might have gone, in my own small range of experiences. Such a labor it was, but he didn’t give up and he was on a tight schedule, but at last it was complete and it was good. When he made us he said it was VERY good. I look forward to that; to looking at myself further along my path and thinking “Hm. Not bad. Not bad at all.” I hope. That’s what I’m trying for anyhow.